A Mom's Retreat

 

alright I guess.  Just very busy working.  I've had a very full week this week.  You know infomercials are scams and I find the older people are the more confused they are and tend to say yes to many things.  It's so sad.  I try extemely hard to NOT make them confused.  I don't want this happening to my parents or grandparents.  I hate taking advantage of people and that's what I feel like I'm doing.  I'm not a salesman.  I hate selling things.  It's just not in my nature.

 

The girls are doing well.  I think they have all A's.  Keara said something about making honor roll again.  I just wish she would apply herself more.  She lies about homework... or should I say she "forgets".  Kiley is so happy go lucky it isn't even funny.  She'll do whatever you tell her for the most part, as in daughter duties. LOL

 

Dave has been working and going to school non-stop... He's exhausted and a little brain fried.

 

Me... hmm... I'm just really tired. 

 

Halloween was fun.  The girls went as witches.  They were so cute.  I got them long wigs.  They also brought home more candy than we bought.  Amazing how much candy they got.

 

Well that's all I can think of at this point.

Karma!

 

kar‧ma  [kahr-muh]

 

Today a woman that started a ton of rumors about me got fired from her job for doing this to other innocent family in the neighborhood.  Boy does this make my day.  She has managed to make my life a living hell for the past year.  I hate her.  I truly do.  She is a thorn in my side... more like a huge rose bush.  She's a very large woman.  Man, I'm happy!!

 

Man... ever since hearing of Steve Irwin's death I've been so bummed!  Not really because of his death, but because what it symbolizes to me.  It's a wonderful man that had a wonderful family.  He did so much for the world.  He educated and entertained so many.  He had true passion.  And a truly passionate person is hard to come by.

 

Recently, in my neighborhood there has been a lot of talk about sex offenders and people have shared their experiences.  I don't know, I guess I keep thinking about how these horrible men can run around free and yet they aren't doing anyone any good.  They are just wasting oxygen.  They ruin lives. 

 

Then there is the man who received 99 years in prison for 9 DUIs.  How in the world does this make sense?  A child molester may get 10 years, a murderer gets 25 and a man who has 9 DUIs gets 99 years?  To me the child molester does the most harm.  At least when you kill a person death is still "normal".  We all experience death at one point or another.  So we grieve and we deal with the loss of a loved one.  But when a man molests a child it ruins their lives and ruins the lives of everyone involved.  Yes, people can deal and overcome, but it changes who the person is.  It changes families forever.  Everyone still has to deal with the pain.  One thing, a child molester cannot be cured.  A murder may or may not be cured, depending upon the person.  So why is it that the child molesters are free to go only after a few years?  Why is the system so fucked up?  How can these people be getting away with it?

 

Molesters are the lowest of the low.  Hell, in prison everyone wants to kill them.  They are lucky to even make it out alive.  Why should they get special treatment in prison?  I think they should just be let loose and see who kills them first.  Hell, give the inmates a reward!  First one to kill ole pedophile get $1,000!  I'm pretty sure molesters who possibly think once more before touching a child.  Certain death is a good deterrent.

 

I'm just so bummed. 

 

And I can't find Kiley's birth certificate. I'm freaking out.  A copy has to be turned into Dave's work.  She was born in Germany and I cannot find any paperwork about her birth.  What the hell am I going to do??  I feel like saying every 4 letter expletive I can think of.

 

And tonight is Girls Night Out.  I'm bringing wine.  But at this point after all the rain all day (Did I mention that it's been raining all day?) I want to curl up and watch a movie and cry alone.  I don't feel like socializing.

 

Steve Irwin died today.  It is such a sad thing.  His poor family... Terry, Bindi and Bob.  They must be heartbroken.  It saddens me so at the thought that the world is filled with such evil and hatred and someone like Steve Irwin that does such good for the environment and animals leaves this world so early.  It breaks my heart.  He should be allowed to be on this earth with us.  I don't understand what the "higher power" is thinking.  Why?  Why not the evil people?  Why people who have great hearts and do so much good?  Why not the evil people that waste oxygen?

 

I am addicted to a very mellow song right now.  It's such a deep song... if that is even the right word.  Sounds like it was composed in such a special way with deep thought.  Moby's song "Love Theme" from his album "I Like To Score".  LOVE the song!! 

 

Another song I also love is Utopia by Goldfrapp.  Goldfrapp is definitely a group that covers all genres.  They are very funky!

 

I would provide a link, but it seems my favorite music isn't available to view online.  Oh well.  I suggest LimeWire!!  Love it!

 

This new show called Justice is really good!  I loved being able to see the crime scene, then the trial and then lastly the behind the scenes of what really happened.  I hate watching those shows where the people commit the crime, then either end up free or in jail and you really have no idea of what really happened.  This show is great!  Because the whole time you get to guess.  Then you can see if you were wrong or not.  I'm excited to see what it brings next week!

 

The funny thing about the show is Kerr Smith!  He was Jack McPhee from Dawson's Creek.  A show I once upon a time actually watched!  But Kerr is actually really good in the show. 

 

Today is my mom's birthday.  I called her and left a message, but never heard back.  Today she is 55.  So strange seeing my parents grow older. 

 

Today Dave did a ton of work on the yard.  He cleared out the fried tomato garden, mowed, edged and trimmed the lawn.  I watered plants and cleaned up the porch some.  The yard is looking pretty good.  A little fried from the sun though.

 

We were hoping to get some rain, but I think it went right by us... Again!  Luckily it has been cooler though.  No longer over 100 every day.  But the thermostat in my car said 100.  But tomorrow it's supposed to be about 86.  Can't wait!

 

The girls are sick.  Kiley has swollen tonsils and a cough.  Keara is done being sick.  She threw up Thursday morning.  But appears to be all better now.

 

Dave starts school tomorrow... he's taking a bunch of computer courses and getting certified in a bunch of things.  3 of his classes are only 8 weeks.  That takes a lot of pressure off of him.  He's not looking forward to having his next 8 Saturdays taken away.

 

So now Dave is watching all the TV shows he has missed over the past 4 days.  Now I'm bored because I've seen them all.  And now none of my friends are online... Damn it!

 

I need to go to the chiropractor.  My neck is out of place!

 

Well I have a small list of things upsetting me.  My dad is in the hospital.  He went for a colonoscopy on Friday and has been bleeding internally since.  He's now in the hospital and they are trying to figure out what's bleeding.  Hopefully it's an easy fix and he will be on his way home tomorrow.  My mom is the one that usually has the health ailments, not my dad.  My dad is the rock so-to-speak.  Nothing can happen to him.  I think I still look at my dad as "my daddy", like a little girl.  All girls have this total love when it comes to their fathers, like they can do nothing wrong and no matter what they are always "daddy".  To this day I still call my dad "Daddy".  He is my daddy.  It's an unexplainable way and relationship unless you are a girl.  Even then I don't think everyone feels this way about their fathers.  I love my dad and couldn't imagine him not being on this earth anymore.  It's almost like I'm his mom and want to protect him and keep him safe.  Kinda funny.

 

Other than that, it's the same old crap.  I am just tired of some people.  I just want to hide in my house and stay in the confines where it's safe.  I know this is a retarded scenario, but it's true.  Right now I feel like I want to hide out.  As it is I'm upstairs with all the lights off and it's dark in here.  It's nice.  I just want to curl up on the couch and take a nap.  ooooo, good idea!  I'll do that in a sec.

 

But I'm at the point where I've had my fill.  Know what I mean?  Just sick and tired of the drama and bullshit people dish out.  My family matters more than anything in the world.  Nothing else truly matters.  Keeping them safe from harm and others is my main concern.  And keeping me far away from drama and harm as well.  That's why I want to hide out.  I just feel bombarded with evil and drama lately.  I can't escape it. 

 

Nap time!